I’m a running newbie… I’ve just recently started my own version of the Couch to 5K program, and I go out three to four times a week and train. I posted about it here, and I love it. It’s extremely relaxing to me, makes me feel like I’m doing something wonderful for myself, and gets me closer to my goal of one day being an actual runner.
That being said, I’m still in the very early stages of learning to run. I walk probably 75% of my trip, with spurts of running mixed in. I’m still figuring out my form, what stretches to do when, how my feet should fall, and how to breathe right so I don’t get light headed.
In fact, I just today succeeded in keeping my torso from twisting side to side and remembered to pretend there was a string coming out of the top of my head holding my body straight. So as much as I would like to call myself a runner because I’m making the effort to learn, there are times when it’s undeniable that I just look really silly.
I run on a public road, and even though there isn’t much traffic I probably see 4 or 5 cars during my run. Every time a car drives by I could stop running so that I don’t embarrass myself. The urge is definitely there. But I don’t, I keep going.
I keep going because I tell myself that it doesn’t matter what I look like – I’m doing something.
I keep going because every time I run I get a little better and a little more confident.
I keep going because I don’t want to edit myself to look better to someone else.
There have been times on this blog that I may not have written the kind of post I wanted to write because I worried that someone would think differently of me. I worried that someone I know might read it and laugh at me.
I do the same thing when I design something for a customer or to list in my shop on Etsy, I second guess myself and question my abilities. Sometimes to the extent that I talk myself out of publishing the post or listing the design. What if it isn’t good enough?
You know who doesn’t edit themselves? People who do things. People who become people. One of my favorite quotes lately is this one by George Addair.
Everything you want, is on the other side of fear.
If I edit myself, or you edit yourself, the only person we’re hurting is us. It doesn’t effect anyone else, but it keeps us from learning, growing, improving, becoming the people we want to be.
So I say we quit editing and start doing…
Blog like no one is reading.
Draw like no one will see it.
Build it like maybe they aren’t coming.
Run like no one is watching.
Do it for yourself, because really, what’s the worst that could happen?